I wanted to share something with you single ladies. I wrote
this letter to my future husband back before I met him. In fact, I did this
whenever I felt lonely. It helped me remember not to settle for what was
available (the guys asking me out who I knew weren’t God’s best) but to wait
for what was MINE. MY someone.
You have a Someone, and maybe you have not met them yet, but
they are out there. As long as you are loving God, you are not far away from
your Someone, because God knows exactly where he is right now.
So here’s an entry from my “Someone” journal. By the way, my
husband Jason got to read this journal as one of my wedding gifts to him…
My Dear Someone,
Just thinking about you lately. Kind of like a birthday gift
you know is coming, I have a sense of expectancy about you. Sure, I’ve known
God would give me the gift of a wonderful mate, but it seems very near. I’ve
reached a point where I am content with being single and I’ve actually grown to
enjoy it in some ways. That’s saying something because for the past years, I’ve
felt so impatient, spending many hours in either sadness, self-pity or
insecurity over the fact that I’ve never, and I repeat, NEVER had a boyfriend. Granted,
this is something I chose because I know you are there. We are both living for
a greater purpose, and we will meet when it will bring the most good for us and
for the Kingdom of God.
I’m so in love with my Jesus that it’s thrilling to just
talk to Him. I love to lay here on these starless nights and have
heart-to-heart talks with Him. Usually you come up in the conversation either
because I ask about you or pray for you. I tell my siblings and others that if
I’m serving God and you’re serving Him, then we can’t be too far away from each
other.
At times I have a temptation to feel remorse over the fact
that you are missing moments in my life or I am missing special times in yours
right now, but really our faith gives us a history with one another.
I believe if two people are in love with the Father, they
have in a sense known each other since they were born again because they both
know the same Source of Life. If that’s where you find your identity and I find
mine, then we know the most important thing about each other already even
before meeting. And that gives me comfort.
I pray for you often and think of you so much. Hope you pray
for me too. Hold on to the promises of God that are beyond wonderful. He
blesses me with indescribable joy, despite the pain of this life. I am more
than a conqueror through Him who loves me and has called me to his beautiful
purpose. I know you understand that no matter how much I will love you, He will
always come first.
I love you already.
Amy
